TO THE GIRL I WAS THEN

By Erika Mendez

 There are always situations where you are reminiscing through memories and actions you have taken that you find yourself regretting or expecting better. My point is, there are going to be times where you are going to want to give up because it’s hard (there always is). Dear past self, life finds a way to gravitate from your happiest moments in life to the most worst and horrible moments. There are times where you think it’s so unnecessary because you passed through so much just for you not to gain anything from it. But you’re wrong, there’s this saying my mom told me “Remind yourself that you did the best you could do because at the end of the day it’s all going to be worth it in the end”. These simple and so accurate words stuck with me, sooner or later I believed there was going to be something, and if someone would’ve told me this when I was in a mental state of giving up. I would say, wise words would get you through any hardships you are going through and I live by those words. My pieces of advice are for you to take into consideration in the future, heads up by the way if you don’t take these words don’t expect to feel good when you are balling your eyes out and asking yourself why you didn’t do it sooner (p.s. I know you very well so let’s try to avoid that ok :). But anywho, on a realistic note, no one knows you better than you know yourself. We are all purposed to go through altercations through life, it’s inevitable. The fundamental cause is how we manage those structures of emotions and strategies in overcoming them. Our main cause of derangement consists of criteria and negative energy. There is always going to be that one person that will tear you down because of their selfishness and unempathetic heart, that will be envious of your accomplishments. Being blind can be so facile at times. Not knowing that the human you’ve trusted for a large quantity of time and had so much respect for would stab you right in the back.

Seeing the world through tired eyes is not the move… trust me it’s not the move. You get so caught up in a carefree mentality that you merely start to notice the true reality and certainty is right in front of you. Imagine, grasping that mindset of giving up and seeing the atmosphere with tired eyes. Where and how do you think it will get you? Will it make you feel better? Will, it enlighten you? I DIDN’T THINK SO… (your answer better be no…) it would set your priorities of believing in yourself and being careless of what other ignorant people say, would simply set you up to fail. Simple as that, nothing more nothing less. Regardless of people, valuing yourself first is major! Before anybody’s critics, comments, suggests, whatever the case is YOU are the important one, not nobody else. Crucially, what you think of yourself and how you value yourself is how you will overcome any pessimistic vitality. Foremost, involving yourself with adequate and exemplary energy is number #1 in a good healthy internal and external mentality. All in all, as an experienced future self these advises are principal to avoid a downfall… unless you want one. In all seriousness past self, cherish the people you have, you will do great, and just know that “..when you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that’s the place and time that the tide will turn”. – Harriet Beecher Stowe.

Sincerely, from your future self. 🙂 <3

Erika Mendez – Von Steuben – DMSF

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