You shouldn’t doubt yourself. You shouldn’t wait to see if someone else says something before you do. Speak out, take action. Stand up for what you believe in.
It’ll take you some time to understand this, but live every day like you’re going to die when you go to sleep.
You lost a lot of people, but you gained purpose, self-worth, people who truly care about you. Losing Amar is still hard, I think it always will be and sometimes you still blame yourself but it’s getting better.
I know that fourth grade seems really easy for you (c’mon, it’s just addition and subtraction) but trust me, it gets more difficult in future years, so cherish those smiling memories that you have.
It was a bad time for you. Mom was ready to kill you. The stress you caused her and the rest of your family was terrible. You put them through a lot. It was pretty much just pure luck that you didn’t get in worse trouble, and maybe messed up your whole life.